Meditation Tape 11 : Samhain Meditation, Return to Source
November 6th, 1:30 am - It was a full moon last night. Meditation 11 triggered an experience that I'm still in shock about. Every 3rd thought since has been about what happened in that moment. Yet, it's a silent shock, because there can be no effective way of communicating what happened to me. Nevertheless, I'll give it me best (for the technical description scroll down below). While listening on repeat in bed, I came to awareness at the beginning of the "vibrational state", right on the edge of lucid dreaming and leaving my body. It was in the early stages of sleep once again. This time I didn’t get to experience flying around or anything. But I got my wish. I needed to experience the beginning stages. So after being asleep for a very short period of time, I became completely aware again, bathed in energy all over of white and yellow light. I was shaking intensely and buzzing with excitement. I might have "woken up" noticing what was happening from my research, and so that triggered my awareness. I felt a slight ping of fear, and I told myself to embrace this with a smile and open heart. I started to shake madly and the light energy was bursting all around me. I was sure I was going to wake up Claryssa…I was going nuts. I wasn’t quite computing why she wasn’t reacting. I threw my arms forward into the superman pose to take flight, which seems to be my instinct. I guess I really want to fly. But In retrospect, I should have gone with the demanding “awareness now” technique. Or a gentle acceptance to calm myself, like superman floating effortlessly. Something with more clear emotional intention than “random direction”. Unfortunately I did not take flight, and I did not punch the wall with two fists above me. My arms did not move at all. It’s hard to describe the visuals, having experienced nothing like it. Was I surrounded by intensely bright white and yellow lightning? Not quite, but sort of. What hits me most now is remembering the feeling. It just doesn’t seem like this would be a feeling that would randomly manifest in a dream. Feeling so full of energy you could burst… I immediately asked Claryssa if she experienced any of what just happened. She did not. Having this kind of energy overtake my body was like nothing else. These phenomena are obviously coming up in my research, but to observe them directly is something else. I can’t just manifest images and experiences like my brain is the holodeck. These can’t be just dreams. An enormous amount of mental infrastructure would have to be built and maintained by my body to enable this experience. Evolution does not like dead weight. Given the depth of experience and the corroboration between witnesses, and now by myself bit by bit, I can only conclude that there’s a reason for this. It could be that the prison is designed to keep us distracted, constantly needing to fear for our existence, with no time to meditate. Humanity may have needed to reach a level of peace and harmony that could allow one to regularly meditate for extended periods of time, and then begin to cut a hole in the prison wall.
Technical Description: Meditation 11 uses a novel technique to create a sweeping autopan to help trigger the hemi-sync effect. I stumbled upon this by accident experimenting with different layers of binaural beats and synth pads, noticing certain combinations would create a consistent sweep from left to right, and then back again. This is because the synth pad in the midrange is having certain frequencies taken out through variable left/right interference from the lower binaural beat, the one centered around B, which sits in the delta range. As this delta wave sweeps slowly left to right, it interferes with the synth chord in a slow sweeping pattern, and then that sweeping interference causes just the right pattern of interference to drag the upper binaural beat sweeping back and forth at a rate slower than the delta wave. But this magic is all happening in your head; take one headphone off and it goes away. Your brain is simulating what it thinks should be happening as these frequencies interact in nature (as goes the conventional explanation), but with flawless clarity, in a perfect universe of no dirty distortions. You can't even reproduce this effect in a room with speakers, because the room itself would add distortions. You need to conjure it from within.
Target Focus Note: Eb4 To help keep your mind focused and engaged while meditating, and to increase cooperation between hemispheres, follow this Eb4 binaural beat as it moves side to side. You may notice, this effect only begins when the synth pad is added to the mix. No actual panning was done on this Eb track.
Grounding Phase - 00:00 7.83 Hz
Release Phase - 05:00 - 3.9 Hz
Awareness Phase - 13:44 - 6.3 Hz
November 6th, 1:30 am It was a full moon last night. Meditation 11 triggered an experience that I'm still in shock about. Every 3rd thought since has been about what happened in that moment. Yet, it's a silent shock, because there can be no effective way of communicating what happened to me. Nevertheless, I'll give it me best (for the technical description scroll down below). While listening on repeat in bed, I came to awareness at the beginning of the "vibrational state", right on the edge of lucid dreaming and leaving my body. It was in the early stages of sleep once again. This time I didn’t get to experience flying around or anything. But I got my wish. I needed to experience the beginning stages. So after being asleep for a very short period of time, I became completely aware again, bathed in energy all over of white and yellow light. I was shaking intensely and buzzing with excitement. I might have "woken up" noticing what was happening from my research, and so that triggered my awareness. I felt a slight ping of fear, and I told myself to embrace this with a smile and open heart. I started to shake madly and the light energy was bursting all around me. I was sure I was going to wake up Claryssa…I was going nuts. I wasn’t quite computing why she wasn’t reacting. I threw my arms forward into the superman pose to take flight, which seems to be my instinct. I guess I really want to fly. But In retrospect, I should have gone with the demanding “awareness now” technique. Or a gentle acceptance to calm myself, like superman floating effortlessly. Something with more clear emotional intention than “random direction”. Unfortunately I did not take flight, and I did not punch the wall with two fists above me. My arms did not move at all. It’s hard to describe the visuals, having experienced nothing like it. Was I surrounded by intensely bright white and yellow lightning? Not quite, but sort of. What hits me most now is remembering the feeling. It just doesn’t seem like this would be a feeling that would randomly manifest in a dream. Feeling so full of energy you could burst… I immediately asked Claryssa if she experienced any of what just happened. She did not. Having this kind of energy overtake my body was like nothing else. These phenomena are obviously coming up in my research, but to observe them directly is something else. I can’t just manifest images and experiences like my brain is the holodeck. These can’t be just dreams. An enormous amount of mental infrastructure would have to be built and maintained by my body to enable this experience. Evolution does not like dead weight. Given the depth of experience and the corroboration between witnesses, and now by myself bit by bit, I can only conclude that there’s a reason for this. It could be that the prison is designed to keep us distracted, constantly needing to fear for our existence, with no time to meditate. Humanity may have needed to reach a level of peace and harmony that could allow one to regularly meditate for extended periods of time, and then begin to cut a hole in the prison wall.
Technical Description: Meditation 11 uses a novel technique to create a sweeping autopan to help trigger the hemi-sync effect. I stumbled upon this by accident experimenting with different layers of binaural beats and synth pads, noticing certain combinations would create a consistent sweep from left to right, and then back again. This is because the synth pad in the midrange is having certain frequencies taken out through variable left/right interference from the lower binaural beat, the one centered around B, which sits in the delta range. As this delta wave sweeps slowly left to right, it interferes with the synth chord in a slow sweeping pattern, and then that sweeping interference causes just the right pattern of interference to drag the upper binaural beat sweeping back and forth at a rate slower than the delta wave. But this magic is all happening in your head; take one headphone off and it goes away. Your brain is simulating what it thinks should be happening as these frequencies interact in nature (as goes the conventional explanation), but with flawless clarity, in a perfect universe of no dirty distortions. You can't even reproduce this effect in a room with speakers, because the room itself would add distortions. You need to conjure it from within.
Target Focus Note: Eb4 To help keep your mind focused and engaged while meditating, and to increase cooperation between hemispheres, follow this Eb4 binaural beat as it moves side to side. You may notice, this effect only begins when the synth pad is added to the mix. No actual panning was done on this Eb track.
Grounding Phase - 00:00 7.83 Hz
Release Phase - 05:00 - 3.9 Hz
Awareness Phase - 13:44 - 6.3 Hz